Father,
This hurts. The pain is there when I wake up and as I fall asleep.
I know who you are and what you can do, but I also know that at times, this pain can be distracting from those truths.
If I'm honest, even if I know where it came from, I don’t always understand why it’s still here.
Father, I know that you are more than able to heal me, and so I have prayed several times the request of the leper: “Lord, if you are willing, you can make me clean.”
And yet, the pain is here.
I won’t pretend to understand why. After all, as the scriptures say, does the clay say to the potter, ‘What are you making?’
All I honestly come to you with today is honesty, faith, and obedience.
Honesty to remember you are a loving Father who does not rebuke the cries of his child.
Faith to say, God, you are my God.
Obedience to echo the words of Jesus, your will be done.
As much as I want this pain to fade, if you have a plan for it, then let my life be in your hands.
For the pain in my body, I pray to you, Jehovah Rapha, the God who heals.
For the pain in my mind, I pray to you, Jehovah Shalom, the God who is peace.
For the pain in my heart, I pray to you, Jehovah Nissi, the God who is our banner of victory.
Heal what you long to heal.
Fortify what you long to fortify.
Bring clarity where there is confusion.
All for your Glory, God.
Amen.
